A little about me

This is from my other blog, it might help you to understand me better. Yesterday I was really feeling the need to run away. I have been major stressed, working on a publication, dealing with serious PMS ( I experience some serious irritability to the point that if I was my client I might medicate or hospitalize ; ) and just having some doubts....For those of you who are Christian, I have been under serious spiritual attack, for those who are not life has sucked a bit in the last few days. At any rate I did run away sort of, I went to visit a girlfriend who herself is going through some stuff, it really put things into perspective for me. she has absolutely no support right now, going through a divorce, opening a new business, etc. It helped to be alone with her (I like to think it helped us both). It helps to talk to someone who doesn't think that motherhood is the greatest thing she will ever accomplish. Certainly motherhood, and marriage are some of the greatest gifts God has ever brought me, but sometimes it helps to be able to spill the beans that this is probably the WORST job I have ever had. I swear if I worked on the open market and there was this much whining and complaining, and CRAP to clean up I would quit! This is not the first blog I have written that tells it like it is but it is the first one I have put my name on, LOL. Certainly for me anyway, the fruits of my labor are some of the most talented, self-assured, loving and empathetic individuals you would ever meet, the level of communication in our house surpasses that of many households (hence the whining and complaining, where else can you feel that safe!). But good God sometimes I want to scream. At any rate, I can feel my hormone level dropping and today I am less likely to beat you up if you tick me off, so I wanted to leave you with this......Don't ever feel guilty if you don't seem to enjoy the job as much as everyone else, I'm good at it, I just don't always care for it. It is okay to enjoy your own company, and to say it out loud! It is okay to enjoy the company of others and if it helps to pretend to be somebody else. My relationship with God puts it all into perspective.....I know he loves my but I bet sometimes he gets sick of me too (and my whining and complaining, LOL).